I dont know what i want out of life anymore.

6 months ago i was the good little Christian girl with the strong morals and high hopes
Now i just don't know anymore
I've been let down a shit load the last few months and it's just ruined me.
I haven't prayed or picked up my bible since the end of December
And i don't even care

6 months ago I would have been dying
My self esteem is absolutely rubbish/does not even exist. I hate my body and i have a shit personality.
I still plan to go to University and study psychology. Maybe i can figure myself out yeah?
I want out. Im just sick of shit.