Freedom.

So i've been thinking lately. I don't know why. Exams are done with for the next month or so. But life in general. Especially my family.

My parents have started giving me so much freedom the last couple of months. its confusing me. mind you i'm not challenging it, i just feel kinda guilty. Like, i haven't done anything to deserve being allowed to, like for example, catch a train from Milson's Point to Liverpool at 11.00 at night and then catch a taxi home by myself. But i love my parents. They're so awesome. I have so much in common with them. My Dad and I dance, head bang, sing, laugh, work together. My mum and I shop, sing, clean, watch tv, read and gosh i dunno. I just do so much with them. My Dads selling his dirtbike soon (which is like his pride and joy, besides his Harley Davidson of course) so he can get me a bigger dirtbike. 'Cause i've outgrown my little 200cc. And he's buying me my first roadbike, which if he gets his way will cost about 6k. The other week my mum spent like 200$ on me just 'cause i asked for a couple new dresses, which were like $20 each. And it's like, why?! I've never been one to ask for stuff, i make do with what i have. I don't come from a loaded family, we rarely have much money left for spending anyway. But thats what happens when both your parents work for TAFE huh. I hate accepting things off other people. Like when i go to someones house, i don't like accepting food or a drink even if im starving or dehydrated.

Life is strange in that sense.

My relationship with God is getting stronger lately though. And i have people like Lillian to thank for that. She's such an inspiration. Just the way she carries herself and lives everyday for God. I don't know what i'd do if it wasn't for her. Even if she doesn't directly realise how much she helps me. Though on that note i'm also going through a bit of a dry season. Which is killing me. Seasons are so annoying. No. Dry seasons are annoying. I've just been so stressed. I've been neglecting my faith. I need a new bible too. One with a meta cover. You know those pretty ones? yeah.

But, i think that's enough blogging for now.

I will continue this tomorrow. Because i have a fair bit more to type.

I need sleep and a good book :)