I should be writing my speech for Australian History at the moment. Maybe writing some notes for English. But instead i am sitting here listening to the Beatles, reading up on Pripyat/The Chernobyl disaster. I don't know why destruction interests me so much. Or more, why people create destruction. I like to research 'monsters' extensively, to try and gain some sort of insight into why, why did they create such destruction? Or, in Hitler's case, why did he murder millions of people?

Because he was a monster is what most people would say, yes? I suppose so. But he was a brilliant one at that. The way he spoke, convinced everyone to believe in his views. He was still a bit of a psycho though.

I think it is because of my interest in why people create destruction that I want to become a psychologist. I like learning, challenging myself. Sometimes.

I have a strange mind. It confuses me. I feel like i'm too level headed sometimes. I like doing things the right way. I like doing things my way though at the same time. I like sitting by myself and not thinking, just listening to music. Staring at an inanimate object. I think i would make an awesome stoner. Though i highly doubt i could ever become one.

I really hate this weather. I want summer. I am too white for even my liking. It's scary. I want to finish school and spend the day sitting in the sun, maybe reading a book, and then spending the night in a random park with some awesome people. I like summer nights. I can't wait for January, it's my favourite. We spend so much time away from home, on the coast, in the country. It's magnificent. I want to try and convince my Dad to let me bring someone down the coast this year. He will probably use the 'but it's not our house' argument again. I wonder if he'd say yes though. I wonder who i'd take. I consider so many of my friends best friends that it's difficult deciding on one. And then there's the matter of the fact that 98% of my friends parents are extremely strict. I'll work it out though.

My minds gone blank now. I think i'll go make some lunch :)